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26 year-old male from Vancouver, WA
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Kapoofyness!
I haven't made a journal entry in a while now...I think that's been rather apparrent. There's a reason, honest!
See, I noticed myself coming here and whining every time I had a problem, and I got kinda sick of reading my own whining every few days, so I decided to stop to prevent it. I still whine, but most of it is to myself, but at least this way I don't affect the masses! See? I care!
Not whining here, just giving an update, I swear...
I went to the doctor this last Monday for a health appraisal. It went mildly well...or at least as well as I've ever gotten. They gave me a tetanus shot, and the doctor dude gave me a physical. Felt wierd having another guy look at my crotch, let alone touch it...but then again...there was something else that made me able to bear it without any sort of creeped-out feeling. Anyhow, the rest of the visit went as it did, and then as his diagnosis of my problems, he said I have depression.
...this should, honestly, shock nobody. Not a single flipping person I've ever talked to. In fact, I could prolly spell it out and before I typed the "e" they'd be able to guess. Hell, most people reading this journal could probably do the same.
Even so, I know it's not entirely medical. I know it stems from a lot of childhood, parental and relationship issues. Mar, very astutely, said that I just need a large helping of Mari. So very true. Last year, it was gone...completely. I know why.
The doctor suggested either counseling or meds...being the anti-pill person I am, I chose counseling. I WAS going to set up an appointment for this coming week...but then something crappy happened. The tetanus shot decided it wasn't doing its job.
I spent 2 days mainly bedridden. The time I wasn't in my bed, my arm had to be propped up and resting...completely. If it wasn't, it was in a massively bad throbbing, sometimes searing pain. I didn't sleep more than 3 hours for 4 days. I couldn't even take a shower. Finally, yesterday it started going away. I can sleep again, and eat, and shower...
I just got annoyed when mom says to me... "I asked you to do something some days ago and you haven't done it yet...just reminding you."
Despite the thought of "well thanks for giving a crap, mom, but I couldn't sit up, let alone clean your frelling desk...and if I'd done it, I'd prolly have stopped breathing!" I stayed quiet. Ya...I neglected to mention that for 2 days there it felt like my chest was going to explode...I couldn't swallow or breathe. Completely bedridden. Damn shot.
Anyway, just relaying that...now that it's gone, I think it's marginally funny the entire timeline of events since I went to that appointment. I was so pitiful, though...I was whining so much, and whimpering. Mar had to listen to me the whole time...poor girl.
Happily, I have a followup appointment to schedule for sometime in November. I'm supposed to have seen a shrink by then. Joy. But on the plus side, I have an eye appointment tomorrow, and I plan to get some new glasses while I'm there. I'm sure all 1 of you (since Mar doesn't check this anymore...hi Wyatt!) might wanna see me in 'em. I'll prolly post a picture if I can. I'll show Mar too of course, though!
Hmm...I played Shadow Hearts... Despite the fact that I got past Asia, the game was pissing me off thanks to its lack of true entertainment value. Shadow Hearts 2 arrived...and I didn't play it for 2 weeks, then just sent it back. Okage: Shadow King arrived, but this game is annoying the hell out of me, so I'll prolly just send it back, remove all the games from my Q...and anxiously await G.U.. It comes out on the 24th, yanno! I'd buy it if I could, but I doubt I can. I'd need to get a job last week in order to get any money to buy it right away.
Oh...I got pissed off at the people in AC, too...so I stopped playing it. I can't bear to log in pretty much at all anymore. I started playing WoW again, but due to my recent (this weekend) bout of down-ness, I can't seem to experience fun from anything...so I'm at a loss ATM.
We'll see. Either way...
Oh ya...before I click submit... Mom again told me she wants me to get a job. This time, it's not because she wants me to move out, or because she's concerned... It's because she wants a Christmas present. When I was little, I was bummed if I didn't get a present, and to be honest I was kinda expecting one every year, but that's where it ended. I didn't turn to mom and say, "mom, this year I expect you to get me a present!" Sorry, but for some reason that just screams "I don't care about anything but me" to me. She's my mom, and she's done a lot for me over the years, but the tact presented in that statement of hers was nonexistant at best, if not negative. If I can manage to get a job, my first mission will NOT be to buy her a present, but instead get myself a goddamn car. If I'd get her anything, it'd be Burning Crusade. But, I'm almost dead-positive that the woman will have a copy for each of her accounts before I can manage to afford to buy it for her, so what the hell am I going to get her? A shirt? That was my Christmas present for 2 years in a row, and I didn't complain, but that's where I'm looking right now for her, since she's far too hard to shop for...she doesn't want anything, but what she DOES want is stuff I don't want to get for her. A bread machine...cake decorating stuff... She won't use it. Meaningless frilly stuff she fawns over for 10 minutes and then never sees again. I want to get her something she'd use, which to be honest is bordering heavily on the word "nothing." We'll see there, too, but the way she said that makes me not want to get any single thing for her at all, let alone something nice.
Yay, cookies to bake!
-J-
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Jon Lindner | | Occupation |
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